I’m a little nervous about the fall.
Daniel and Ella will be attending full-day kindergarten.
It’s going to be weird, to suddenly be without any of my kids for seven hours every day. Not that I’m complaining. I’m sure I’ll find something to do. There are soap operas to watch, clothes to be purchased, snacks to consume, and people to gab on the phone with. That’s not where my concern is at all.
There are two things I’m worried about. First, Ella on the school bus. Have you seen this child? She’s five, but she looks and talks like a three-year old. And she throws fits. Tantrums of grand proportions. Screaming and caterwauling and lying upon the floor, belly down, in protest of what she perceives to be some indignity done against her. Like I didn’t have apple juice in the fridge. Or I deigned to suggest she not wear pajama bottoms to school. Things like that.
I feel that these fits pose a problem if they happen in the den of iniquities, i.e. the bus. Then again, Caleb, Ben, and Daniel would be there, too- I’m so conflicted. Yay bus or nay bus?
Second, the school district is putting significant pressure on me to separate the twins. I have a funny feeling in the pit of my stomach about this. First off, I don’t want to go from juggling two different teachers and two curriculums to suddenly juggling four different teachers and four curriculums. I’m not that organized. And, come on, this really is all about me. I’d love for the twins to have the same homework, same field trips, same class parties, etc.
The CSE director, who directs Ella’s IEP, strongly encouraged me to separate them. “Speaking as a twin…” she said.
Speaking as a twin? That’s not being objective, right? Of course she'd be a twin. Poop. Her points were valid, I admit. All the reasons I want them to stay together- they like being together, they understand one another better than anyone else, they don’t like being apart for longs periods of time- are “bad,” signs of “codependency,” and “perceiving two individuals as one unit.”
They are only five. Is encouraging them to be apart at such a young age truly healthy? Unlike identical twins or even same-sex twins, even though they have a strong bond, they are not joined at the hip. They have separate interests, different friends at school, and now, separate bedrooms.
I’d like to keep them together for kindergarten. This is going to make that “that mom” in the eyes of the district.